just saying. Then again, Zac Effron was decent in Hairspray so you never know. It bothers me knowing that Jesse McCartney is actually older than I am. creepy. I DO approve of Jackson Rathbone for Sokka, not that I know how he acts, but he looks doinky enough.

ALSO i JUST found out that HBO is going to be doing the Game of Thrones pilot oh GOD I hope they pick it up. Since they canceled Pushing Daisies i'd pretty much lost hope for television but HBO you are a light in dark times.


( Tegaki Dorkery )
I'm on break now and basically means I do exactly what I did at school all day (sit around at my computer drawing,) only now I get yelled at for it.
On the bright side, I've actually picked up my commissions for real and am feeling very proud of myself.
that is all for now.

So I've just discovered Sarah Harmer, who is now my new favourite person EVAR. I CANNOT tell you how hard it was to just select one song to share with you guys but this one line just makes the song "It's been so dry the grass is happy and, i think, so am i"

I dunno. I have a huge crush on her. Also, if you are unfamiliar, grooveshark is the best online music situation i've come across so far; it actually lets you listen to what YOU want to, instead of "this sounds vaguely like what you want based on totally arbitrary calculations"
so, yeah.
I <3 her



In other news, my life has been so crazy recently. It's nearing the end of the semester for us so of course everything is piling up unpleasantly, and I'm not getting m uch time for myself. Despite that, I am in the process of reviving my Tegaki after I found out that they now offer opacity settings (!!!!!!!!) and have drawn some lovely ( BOOBZ ) for you.

Also I am a secret quizwhore and this one was actually kinda cool-

The Ultimate Color Test

When you are at peace, you are: Thoughtful and sensitive When you are moved to act, you are: Courageous and resolute When you are inspired, you are: Spiritual and humble When your life is perfectly balanced, you are: Connected to nature and the world Your life's purpose is: To change the world

IN OTHER NEWS.
I just wrote, like, a whole page about this painting I just did but none of it makes a lick of sense without a picture of the painting but my idiot friend hasn't mailed me the pics yet so what can you do!??! It ended like this, though-
I have to do a self portrait for my painting class, any ideas for neat concepts? it has to be 2X3foot so urgh. my last week's was just this super closeup.

Sorry for the completely insubstantial update, but if i get into it even a little, i'm just going to be spewing for the next hour and a half so better just to leave it like this hahaha
Even though I'm not updating, your posts make me smile when i read them, so thank you! <3

QUESTION: How do i insert a custom banner at the top of my LJ? is that purely a paid account feature? do you know any way around it? HELP PLZ.

Here is the piece that I want to bannerize- it was my assignment in illustrate to illustrate the word "lost" so...YAY! It is wide so i will put it behind a ( cut. )

wow



I cannot believe that I have not updated since I got to school. I don't even know where to start.
Well I have a bunch of stuff to say that the great majority of you will find VASTLY UNINTERESTING and I have been putting off posting because I really wanted to wait until I had some art to post and unfortunately the commencement of doing REAL art every day has meant that I have been CRUELLY ignoring my tablet and digital art; I haven't done ANY since I got here!!!
But my Illustration 1 assignment two weeks ago was awesome: In a series of five sequential illustrations, present the escape of two characters from a situation. Our materials have been restricted to tracing paper with black markers and pens (this upcoming week is the first time we get to use colors!) and ANYWAY
god I am the queen of the run-on-sentences tonight.
ANYWAY my job is as a computer lab monitor aka I get paid for doing what I do in my room all day long. And there is a scanner here so I finally got a chance to upload some stuff ANYWAY I AM VERY PROUD OF IT haha
If I could do it again I would only change the last panel, to make the punchline a little clearer.



....cause...they're sheep! get it? THEY'RE SHEEP HAHAHAHAHA
I crack myself up YAYYYYY

Anyway, the gist of everything that I could say right now goes like this:
My life is awesome right now. Last year was the worst of my life thus far and it has improved SO DRAMATICALLY. My classes are awesome, My roommate is awesome, I have several potential friends, I'm doing ballroom dance, and everything is awesome. The fact that I am writing this entry, is, in fact, a good indication of that because I really only journal when I am happy, which I think I am.
YAAAAAY I missed you guys sorry I haven't been commenting but I've been reading; and hopefully this will hold again hahaha

It was a big week for me.
Things I did:

-Registered to vote.

-Bought my first vibrator. (actually did those on the same day lol)

-Told mom what a tool she's been being all year.

-Wrote a friendly "I'm not mad anymore" note to my Ex.

-Moved back to school.

-Called the doctor to set up my own physical.

wow. what an exhausting week. I need some sleep.
art once I get some haha

The other day my sisters and Lucia's mom (I guess that means she's not my sister, hun?) were sitting around and talking after dinner and I was sharing the story about how my to-be-roommate (no more) had become a drug dealer and somehow the question of how one ingests crack came up. And Lucia informed us, in all her wisdom,


And because she is 10 times better at doing impressions than I am, I had to convey my amusement in some way.

I just watched "Everything Is Illuminating" for the first time- I feel illuminated. Also, my real sister, Anjuli, brought home a bootleg Korean DVD with like 20 Disney movies home from Ghana (I know) hence the Disney meme today. Last night I watched Sinbad, and I am SO IN LOVE with the arm shape...

It's even MORE exaggerated though. Yummy.

The last two days with no one but my cats for contact has reminded me of how much I enjoy solitude when I choose it, and how much I hate it when I have no choice.

I've recently fallen in love with the music video for Iron & Wine's "Boy With a Coin" so I drew this little tribute-



Nothing too serious, just a doodle break from bigger things, none of which i can seem to finish...
If you haven't seen the video, check it out:

Yesterday I took my sister/bestie to her first year at college and moving her in was...weird. She has a gorgeous room, and such a nice roommate, and sweet RAs and as I watched everything being exactly the opposite for her as it had been for me, I began to feel excited about school.
I don't know how I feel about that yet, but I'll let you know when I figure it out.

With many setbacks, I've been, overall, on a "feeling better" trend. I've been thinking a lot about last year when I opened up for commissions. Anyone involved knows that I failed with epic failure. But I've been wanting to, more and more, follow up on them, get in touch with my poor abandoned patrons and such, and for a few days in the last week or so, my desire to do right by them outweighed my self pity and procrastination, and I did a few sketches. It's a small step, but it's in the right direction. Anyway I'm doing a few smaller projects to see if I'm ready to not let people down in a second round, starting with my 33,333 kiriban. LOL it's not actually THAT far behind, I've gotten 3/5 of my total pageviews this summer, and she caught it in the late spring so I'm not THAT heinous of a human...for that at least. That's actually more than half done, and then I'm doing a trade, and if I manage that in a timely fashion, I'll begin contacting people...
I'm actually quite excited about it. I hope I don't bitch out again.

in other news
I GOT MY FIRST DAILY DEVIATION!!!!!
Not a huge deal these days, given the quality of most of the crap they feature, but I like to fantasize that my piece actually deserved it haha. Unfortunately as it so often happens, over the last weeks I've been wanting to rework it more and more, particularly the values, but I've decided to, at this point, just let it go and focus my efforts on new stuffs instead. If it's good enough for a daily deviation, it should be good enough for me.

p.s. HAVE A(n anatomically challenged) DANCER.


done while breaking from kiriban pic, approximately 20 minutes- 1/2 hour in Paint Tool SAI

Just a quick hello to convince myself I'm not dead yet, I'm just on vacation. MUST KEEP UP LIVEJOURNAL.

RANDOM'D
I was just lurking on CAPSLOCK ATLA and they were talking about how they're accepting audition tapes for Aang and "no acting experience required" and then someone was like "yeah but dan rad had no experience and he doesn't suck!"

...


WTF X INFINITY??!!?!?!?!!?!?!!
dan rad
A) had PLENTY of acting experience before harry potter and
B) IS THE WORST ACTOR IN THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD! he BUTCHERED the best book series of my generation!

If these are the standards to which we are holding the avatar movie, on the day of its release someone will find me hanging from the beams of the movie theater roof with the words:

"LIVE ACTION, YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DID!"
stapled to my lifeless chest.

random, pt II
On the car ride down to the cape, I managed to convince my friend to tell me the entire plot of the "Twilight" series so I wouldn't have to read it.
at the beginning of the retelling, she was like "IT'S SO GOOD YOU HAVE TO READ IT IT'S MY FAVE SERIES"
and by the end she was like
"oh god....THAT BOOK IS HORRIBLE!!!!!"
hahaha it was so funny. THANK YOU NICOLE, FOR SPARING ME!!!

Random'd pt III
saw "water horse" with my little cousins...
lulz. It is the retarded love child of Pan's Labyrinth and Free Willy.


And even though no one is really reading my senseless posts yet, I AM DOING IT FOR THE DISCIPLINE

p.s. SO MANY CAPS
p.p.s. sorry for the lack of arts, I'm on someone else's computO...

QUESTION:
Why don't more people know about In Bruges? Why isn't it already a cult film??!!? also I'm kind of sucking at this lj thing, I'm going to make a post later tonight as soon as I find that notebook where I wrote it down...

ARTS



This piece is about how I feel when I listen to my anthems:
1) "Sorry," Maria Mena.
2) "Changer," Anais Mitchell.
3) "Love Song" Sara Bareilles.

There are other songs that make me feel this way, particularly orchestral soundtracks and amos lee, but these three are particularly significant to me for their own reasons.
(I feel kinda stoopid posting this here- have all the people who read my livejournal already seen this on devart?)
I've had this image in my head for a really long time, but this is the first time I've succeeded in drawing it. Heartless version is available at my devart, so you can see the musculature and texture, of which i am very proud.

If you know my Devart, you know I've been complaining about the fact that my coloring skills took the kids and left about a month ago, (and all I got was this crappy t-shirt.)
I've been looking at every tutorial ever on the subject (EVAR) and looking at everyone's arts trying to find an appropriate style and, needless to say, I have been failing. Today I had a sudden inspiration, I don't know where it came from, but I'm quite pleased with the results.
I did the method of greyscale first with an overlay layer, but I did cell-shaded style greyscales and used the overlay layer to do the subtle shades, instead of having a super painted effect.

I'm not saying I'm going to use this method for the rest of forever (I've learned that is a bad idea, it never works out,) but I'm pretty thrilled about it right now.

Also pumped because this is the closest to how I see Hollis and Guin in my head that I've ever drawn (aside from Guinevere looking like a SERIAL KILLER!)





In other news, does anyone read the New Yorker? Yesterday I nearly peed myself while reading this article entitled "Passive-Aggressive Appetizers." The last one was
"Hepatitis! (Note: not actually an appetizer.)"
Oh god. Good times with new york humor.

QUESTION: For people who are in, or have completed college; Did you do a year/semester abroad? Do you know anyone who did? RISD has a Rome program and my parents and all their friends have been pressuring me to do it, and, in general, I feel like it's the adults in my life who are really pushing it, so I want to get the opinion of my peers(ish). Is it worth it? Does it mess with your credits? Particularly because RISD is such a great place to study Illustration, I'm worried that if I were to do it, I would miss out on some important class opportunities or something.

It's a lovely day today, and i feel good, which feels good! It's the good version of a vicious circle--- a good circle?

I just posted, and consequently deleted, a journal entry on DeviantArt which didn't even seem like a good idea while I was writing it, and seemed like a HORRIBLE one when I was done. ( Extended and Clarified Version )

Here are the aforementioned sketches: Hollis and Guinevere, that did post-critique. This is all I made today...Ugh.





P.S. don't worry, this is not a trend setter for this journal. I'm rarely this ranty, the most of it is that I'm PMSing hahahaha

To be fair, I did these (mostly) before Tegaki became Tecrappy.
I guess these fall under the category of doodles?
This is IN NO WAY all of them, just a few of my faves.


(Please note, many boobies to follow. also a dong.)
( Old>super Old )

Yesterday, it was my birthday. I turned 19. It's the only age between 18 and 21 that doesn't mean a damn thing.
To celebrate, I got a haircut, went to Bickfords, and a porn store. I summarized.
Actually I'm pretty thrilled about my haircut; I went from *had a drawing but computer crashed* crap to not crap. It's really short and chestnut brown which is the most bland color i've had since 7th grade but it looks really nice. And when i style it like an anime character, which i did, cause i'm a tool, IT'S SUPER AWESOME AND GRAVITY DEFYING.
I'll do a real drawing of it when i figure out how to style it right...
And then i went SHOPPING with mommy and bought THIS UNBELIEVABLY ADORABLE DRESS

credit for ADORABLE style goes to Emmy C., I've always wanted to try it out!
Of course, i am not that skinny, but the dress makes me feel that lovely. It has a sweet little "v" in the back so you can't wear a bra which usually totally flattens me out but this is a miracle dress. And i bought it for myself which felt really amazing (Despite the fact that it was my birthday?! hm)
also these shoes:


In yellow. I am far too lazy to draw them, but they're AMAZING. (and a scarf and shirt which are equally adorable but that's all for now)

I was looking forward (not) to spending another birthday entirely with my mother when my one friend from home, mary, called, and instead i spent the rest of the night gorging myself on fake eggs benedict and scaring the other patrons, and, obviously, playing the "who can find the most heinous dildo?" game. One of my favourites.
all in all, not the worst birthday. My sister called me from ghana and had all her friends sing me happy birthday, too, which was nice.

I've been sitting outside all day and it's been glorious, the first day it hasn't rained in, like, a month. but now it is getting dark, and the mosquitoes are coming out, so i think it is time for me to go in.

a note on this entry: It's true, i haven't used my eljay since the last millenia. (not true.) but i am hopeful. I want to develop the self-discipline to doodle (that sounds counterintuitive but it's true.) so I'll start letting people know that i'm active here when i've made a few entries, until then, we can only hope.